I agree with Oz: leading underscores in names are weird.
On the other topic in the thread, I think the person telling you that you should always be thinking submissive along with acting submissive is dead wrong. If there's virtue in submission then it comes like all virtue: by ignoring temptation. Without temptation virtue is somewhere between meaningless and impossible.
In the Bible was Jesus considered virtuous just because he was named Jesus? No, it was because the Devil tempted him with all the possible earthly powers and delights he could think of, and Jesus remained obedient to his faith in the face of it. I'm not even religious and that story still rings true to me. If there's a never a voice inside telling you to be bad then there's no victory in being good.
A good dom would, I think, encourage you to tell him about the times when you were tempted to disobey so that he could reward you for your virtue of obeying despite that temptation, and help you find ways to minimize temptation in the future.
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