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So, I have been in phone contact with Master today, and we have spoken of yesterday. He and I are completely in synch regarding his role in my life, but it is a big responsibility, and he is taking a few days to draft a contract and present a guidemap for our endeavor. I am so happy that I also have some new friends to talk to about what I am feeling and experiencing (although it will be a while before I feel comfortable enough to take them up on their offer). My hope is that Master can teach ...

Yesterday was heaven as my Master asked me to be his!! I was afraid that he would not want the responsibility to train me or else not have the experience, but I was wrong! I couldn't find the words to express to him how badly I wanted to be his, so I whispered that I was...completely, and wanted to learn how to please him. He acknowledged the responsibility that I was laying at his feet and accepted it, while binding myself to him through an oral agreement. I also got my first task!!
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So this morning I have been asking myself why someone who doesn't like sex and has a low sex drive is so interested in BDSM. My friend (MF) hypothesized that it is not that I dislike sex, but rather the way in which I have been taught to see sex. Growing up in a nation that pretends to be Christian has produced two types of people: obedient and rebellious. As a child and teenager, I was the obedient type, mostly, but as an adult I grow more and more rebellious. If mainstream society wants it...I ...

I hate journaling and I hate revealing my feelings, but I have reached a point in my life where I need somewhere to cataloge my thoughts without fear of retribution, and at home is just not the place.

Two weeks ago I started to spend more time with a friend of mine which reminds me so much of a best friend I had many years ago. I instantly am at ease when I am around him, and like nothing more than to cuddle up in his embrace. I am not sexually attracted to him at first glance, ...