Madness

Waiting
Inhale
Breathe out
Fuck
That didn't work
Inhale
Deeper
Deeper
Things go away
Fuck
Breathe out
What now
I don't remember
I can't remember
I'm tired now
I give up
Not allowed to give up
Have to be upright
Have to pass the muster
Fuck
Breathe in
Now hold
Dizzy
Exhale
Ah not so clear headed
Thoughts jumbled
Facts blur
I'm a loser with no merit
What happened to my promise
What was it
What was it
That's it
Flick the eyes
That should erase them
That should work
Breathe in
Deep this time
Hold it
Slow now
Slowly let it out
Slow now
Try the thoughts again
Maybe it will become clear