I am here to explore what is out there to help me in my decision for a lifestyle change. My life has not been complete. After deep soul searching and breaking down my life to this point....I came to the realization that I have not been acknowledging my true inner self. I have always felt that I was a kinky slut and afraid to act on what I truly wanted because of my upbringing and society. My true needs have been locked away and hidden.
I have found the door now I need the key master!
I am open, honest to the extent of being blunt. If you can not handle the answer then do not ask the question! Yes, my job demands dominance. This is very stressful for me and I try to use all of my human behavior skills to avoid the down right "bulldog" aspect of it. I like things organized and clean. I am 46, years of choosing the wrong partners in life has made me independent but I do not like that completely either. I enjoy a good challenge and will study and research things that I need help with to get the job done. I hate asking for help because I have been let down so many times. There again, I have not picked the right mate in the past.
I will be a handful. It is not easy to undo 46 years of conformity. I do admit that after making this life changing decision, I have grasped it whole heartedly and reading up on what may be expected of a proper sub.
My journey is beginning soon I hope.