himind

Not the way I planned to start the New Year,but I guess with so much screwing up my life, this is another peice of crap that had to land on me. I feel so mad sometimes, I just want to hit out blindly,never do though.Probably will in one last glorious way.So many thoughts whirling in my head, I can't seem to put them in order. I should never have let anyone fuck up my mind like this.But I'll get over this,I know I will..always have. There's this silent scream reverberating in my head whichc sometimes ...

When did life become so complicated? All I wanted was to reap the fruits of my labours of the last fifteen years, but I guess that's not happening very soon. And why did I write this as my first blog entry? Not a very positive start. But I remember beginning my first diary with, "So I still think it's a stupid idea" and I went on to write for almost a decade.Might carry this on for almost as long!