Originally posted by abitbent

While the ink is still drying on the last reply however, I'd love to ask you reverie, specifically about your children. If you look back on the decisions you made, about keeping this yourning bottled, would you say it was the right thing to do, not as a whole, but at the very least, for your children? Now that you've managed to live "freely", would you have made the same decisions then, knowing what you know now?

bent [/B]
I will try to answer your question on children, but the full answer would take a long time and reveal more about myself than I care to this afternoon.

I was married shortly out of college and found out that sex in marriage did not meet all of my needs. I also thought I had no choice. There was no place like the Internet to meet people of like interest. There was no place in the US to go to find similar people. I had only one link to the reality that there were others out there like me. It was B&D ponography and showed that there was a market for the stuff. I had no idea that there were women who actually enjoyed the scene, I thought they were all models.

Our first child arrived and with it love and responsibility. Much of my life has been wonderful and both kids are everything a parent could ask. Both finished in the top ten of their high school class and went on to get undergraduate degrees in four years. Both have advanced degrees and are into their own careers. One is married and one is looking. Sorry about the boasting. I don’t think that either one has my D&S tendencies.

Summary, hiding myself was good for my wife, and good for both children. Was it bad for me, or did it keep me focused on job and family and not self and personal pleasure? Am I a better or worse person today because of the way events went? I don’t know.