Good for you! You shouldn't be embarrassed. Everyone is inexperienced at some point, and those of us who aren't exactly newbies still have things to learn. I think you answered part of your question when you said you were trying to take things slowly. The doms who have contacted you and got frustrated because you didn't immediately trust them enough to do anything they suggested are more than likely horny net geeks who are looking for an easy thrill. They didn't want to take the time to get to know you and figure things out together. D/s relationships are still relationships. Hopefully, you wouldn't trust a blind date with your credit card, car or keys to your house, so why should you trust a complete stranger who calls himself a dom with your physical and emotional well-being? Obviously, they were the ones who were too focused on their own pleasure. Let's get one thing straight. Everyone gets something out of a D/s relationship, or no one would do it. It's ridiculous to imply that you shouldn't think of your own pleasure. If you aren't happy, why would you want to make him happy? It's all about give and take. Don't give up. Just slow down, read a lot, talk to people and become a little more self-aware before jumping in headfirst. Here's a link to a BDSM checklist to help you decide what interests you and what squicks you out. You can also use it as a reference when you're researching topics. I wish you the best of luck in your journey!

http://www.bdsmlibrary.com/forums/sh...ight=checklist