Quote Originally Posted by kelly25
wow, amazing response after such a short time!

Yeah, you're right about the trust issue. Although it's more a trust in myself than a trust in the dom.

Further to my original post, the fear/paranoia is inspired by two things:

1. That I know I'm really bad at saying no. It's got me into trouble before. I was always taught the guy is to get what he wants, no matter what, and while I love the idea of submitting, I know it could get out of hand. Safewords are all fine and good, but not if you don't use them! haha. Don't think I need advice on that one (this is where the nutter comment comes into play - haha)

2. I have worked damn hard at finally getting myself into a position of independence. Can look at myself and think, yeah I'm worth having around, I'm strong, and worthwile and truth be told, my ass looks a bit of alright in a pair of tight jeans! Yet on the other hand I want to give that away by inviting someone to treat me like their whore. Is it possible to be both?

Then there's just the question is this even me? I don't want to be that person who is constantly 'yes, no yes, no' but that's all thats going through my head right now!

hahaha

Probably just added more confusion to the original comment there.
A whole lot of questions I'm trying to work out the answers to!

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Giggle read what you just wrote Kelly. It sounds to me that if you had a Dom you really trusted not to use and abuse you that the trust issues would be settled. So doesn't that mean that you need to find a Dom to trust so you can relax and give up to him the amount of control you want to?
I think your trying to make it your fault. It's not. It just takes time and some one special.
Smiles Again my 2 cents