Damaged Goods

[stars_and_roses]

There's a kind of bitter irony in coming back to this thread tonight.
I started by talking about how my Master handles my flaws...
However, I think I'm about to loose my Master simply because of them.
I recently lost someone really close to me... it's made me go a little bit crazy, push my luck and generally abuse Master's kindness at this time.
It's scary how the very thing that cares for my shattered self can just as easily switch and shatter me into even smaller peices...

My thoughts are with you. I thought for sure I would lose my boyfriend over Christmas for somewhat similar reasons, and while I didn't, we're still on shaky ground. I wish I had some wise words of wisdom to offer, but I don't know how I'm still hanging on.

Hugs,
stars

[sheila09]

at this point in my life, i don't think it's damage that makes us what we are from the start, even before we've realised it--submissives or slaves. i believe it's a personality type. However...we're extra vulnerable to being misused, and are therefore easily damaged. So we end up in a cycle of sorts.

[LolitaDoll]

So much has already been said but I feel like putting my 2 cents worth in from my own POV.

With the life I've had, things I've experienced and went through - I feel as if I am damaged. I don't have a whole lot of self worth. I take responsibility for anything and everything whether in reality its my fault or not. I feel as if I deserve to be submissive. Not that it is a bad thing, but I don't feel as if I deserve to be on top. At the same time, I need reassurance and support. Not someone that will abuse my feelings and lack of self worth and self confidence. I need someone that would take me, as damaged, and mold me into something beautiful.

So for me, I fit into a 'damaged goods' category. I've grown up damaged and more than likely will always have the burden of certain events on my shoulders.

Hope this makes sense. It makes a lot more sense to me in my head than it does typed out.