The hardest part. Hmmm. I think just admitting it to myself and accepting it was hard - I spent a lot of years denying that I was wired this way.

After the acceptance, the hardest part was/is dealing with the need. The vulnerability. Understanding that He wants that from me, that He won't turn me away in it. Or turn away from me. I still struggle with accepting that needy, wanting, vulnerable is exactly what He wants from me.