Found myself drawn more and more to bdsm and having more and more submissive thoughts. Took awhile to come to terms with it because I never really thought of myself as the submissive type before. Didn't have anyone to explore it with, so I started reading and researching online. Still haven't gotten "started" in the sense that I've never been in an online bdsm relationship. Not sure how I feel about it. On one hand, in real life, I'm not sure I'd want to be a 24/7 sub...I'd like bdsm to be part of our relationship, but not the entire basis of it. So if I don't necessarily want to be collared to a Mistress IRL, I don't know if I'd want to be online either. But on the other hand, I wouldn't mind meeting someone online who I had things in common with and would become friends with, who could help ease me into things and help me learn about submission, maybe tasking for her and stuff without the pressure of being owned/collared. It's kind of confusing, really. As a male sub, you're often already perceived as being a certain way, but then if you say you don't necessarily want to be a lifestyle sub, there's people that think you're not serious and you're just there for kicks or whatever. But it's hard to say one way or the other just starting out. I could find I feel totally different the more I get involved. Just new and trying to figure things out, I'm sure I'm not the only one.