Thanks for sharing Silke. It must be incredibly hard to do this merely through typing. I would never be able to describe my feelings accurately enough for him to be able to judge if he couldn't hear me. Moreover, it must be incredibly hard for you to have to divide your attention between typing, reading and feeling. No wonder you have trouble just relaxing and letting it happen - you've had so many things to do ! I have the luxury of being able to lay back and just focus on that cute Aussie voice through the headphones and feel. For me it's very important to be able to turn my brain off, go into subbie mode and just do as instructed. Brosco calls it giving me a mind-cleaning, lol. Once we're in the midst of playing, I basically go pre-verbal - managing only moans, groans, gasps, whimpers, aha, uh a, and the occasional yes sir, no sir.

Lest you wonder about the speed of our progress - we're both single and have quite a bit of time on our hands right now, so we spend hours talking each day/night.

And you're right, who really cares if we ever achieve the ultimate goal, we are having SO much fun in the trying.

fantassy