Thanks caligirl and Tina. My greatest sadness is that it took the woman I had ignored for such a long time to leave for me to wake up and find what is really important to me. And I am aghast at the amount of people who say to me I'm probably better off without her. And you'll find someone else. Also the myriad numbers of people out there that are so out of touch with what's in their heart and when you talk to them they are like stones.

I watch them as the tears fall from my eyes and they just can't deal with it and quickly make excuses to leave. It's funny how when your up people flock to you and want to be around you. But when you are gutted and sad they avoid you like the plague. So you find this place within yourself that puts on a mask and smiles for the camera and your friends for their comfort. Bacause they won't let you grieve, and don't want to hear about your broken heart.

Life is strange and as Jim Morrison said in a song he wrote with The Doors: "This is the strangest life I have ever known..." But life does go on, it has to and so it shall amid the tears and the laughter of a billion souls across the world. But this I know too, I am unique and there is no one else like me or you the reader. Knowing that is just as important as all of the above. Because there is nothing that is trivial nothing that is unimportant.