Jen sis,
please forgive this one for not replying sooner. was out on vacation and returned to your lovely post. there is indeed a *public self* that exists. i too am a professional, in a HIGH stress position...and giving myself physically to Master when the work day is done. but 24/7 my soul belongs to Him. please feel free to email me or contact me in anyway. i would be honored to help in any way possible. the idea of "giving up" control when the work day is done, is not as it sounds. it isnt "giving up" it is setting myself free in His guidance, care and love. please, be not ashamed of finding what makes you happy. celebrate your ability to honor Another with the gift of you.
((hugs))
looking forward to hearing from you.

Master's slave and soulmate,