Thanks for the advice. I really am pretty confused about all this, and I appreciate being taken seriously. I really wasn't sure what my next step should be, but what you said about getting out and meeting people makes sense. (I'm still not sure I would know how to go about doing that, and I'm even more not sure I'd have the guts to.) I have had only limited experience with a couple (very nice) guys I met via the internet, but I'm very aware that it could have turned out much differently. I feel like I'm just blindly stumbling around with this whole concept... I hate being this disorientated. As for making friends and having a support network, while that sounds great, I have no bloody idea how I would ever meet like minded females, much less get myself to confide in them. I guess I really don't have a specific question or real point to this message other than to vent. Oh well. I'll either get through this transition somehow or I won't. A good sized part of me hopes I won't, actually... it was so much easier being "normal" and repressed. Heh

Jen

PS Oh, here's a question. Is it common that submissive femles seem to have such a different "public" self? Do they generally have control issues or stressful jobs or other positions of power? Or is that too simplified a stereotype to be true? heh