Originally posted by red32
so i will continue to service him, as tc stated but im not allowed to masterbate he caught me once and was extremely mad. but i can still fantasize right?
Red, this is hard to say without sounding like a lecture, in my experience guys normally get off on watching a woman play with herself, as it is something they do quite often and think of it being something that we don't do. In any relationship there needs to be a balance of pleasure. It's ony fair that is your partner is unable to satisfy you, that you should be allowed to satisfy yourself (unless in a owned salve situation it is a pleasure that you are being denied for a specific punishment) it's only for you to say if this is what you want, and if you can cope for a number of years like this. A TG said, the only option seeming to be open at this point would be to have an affair, and as you say you couldn't, then you'd have to suck it up and stick in there...

not much more than that to say, only does he know you're posting on here? All the best, this is the best place you could be for some support...

Lady B