advice please!

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thank you all for the advice. My marriage is by far the most important. I would never dream of cheating on him. He did that to me a few years ago. while I was working 70 hours a week he was with another woman. this was before he got sick. I know the anguish that caused me and i could never do that to him.I wish i could tell him my desires.hes older than me and more i guess conservative. also talking about sex upsets him cause he cant perform like he used to.he has his sex online, he has several women that he does this with. im not supposed to know but one of them calleed me when she got mad at him because he wouldnt leave me.so my answer is that i am commited to my marriage. so i will continue to service him, as tc stated but im not allowed to masterbate he caught me once and was extremely mad. but i can still fantasize right?
thanks again for the advice everyone