Sadism

[ProjectEuropa]

I notice that members of this forum almost seem apologetic, when acknowledging a vanilla side to their relationship.
Donatien

I've never found a problem with accepting my vanilla side, it's my BDSM side I always had trouble with.

I found I had to accept a certain amount of sadism in me when I was very angry with someone I knew online (not in an active BDSM relationship) and I knowingly over stepped the mark. I got such an adrenilin rush it both scared me and excited me. The experience was so visceral I could no longer avoid accepting their was a part of my psyche I needed to investigate and took the experience as a good lesson to keep myself in check. It proved a turning point for me, for since, I've been investigating that side of me with some relish and I feel calmer and a more stable person in my pursuance of my ordinary everyday life. My only regret is that I alienated someone I held dear but I suppose we all have to pay a price in life.

Perhaps it because all of us (with the possible exception of ProjectEuropa ) get tremendously sexually high from fantasising, or actually inflicting or receiving pain in a sexual context, and in THAT context ' vanilla' is just that , lacking the spice and excitement of our style of sex. Donatien

Are you trying to coax the sadist out in me? :twak:

Interesting observations Donatien :hail: