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Quote Originally Posted by Allyslittleone
Thanks for all your kind comments and advice.

I think it's wise to say, that whilst I am drun as I write this, it is not a permenant drunken stupor that I am in. I've simpole had a few too many down the pub having a laugh.

The comment about drinking my sorrows away, was made in jest. I know drinking ain;t the answer, and as I said, I can't cope with the hangovers.

But, i have to say, he was my first 24/7 master, and we were together for a very long time, even when he was away for months on end, I still had a structure to my life, he set me tasks and punishments, and it worked damn it! Now, i kind of have nothing.

There is a guy who i've been friends with for a long time. Knows I don;t want a relationship per say but he does want to play a bit, so I guess i'll give that a go, not as a serious master slave thing, but at least something where I can feel like I want to. My submissive side needs feeding, I;m far to miserable to take control of the rest of my life, so until the pet gets fed, i'm pretty much screwed.

I kind of irks me though, all my future plans were focused around him. I qualify at the end of June, and it was the intention that I move to where ever he is posted and focus on my carrer there, obviously, thats changed now, so not quite sure what or where i'm going to go now.

Anyway, the alcohol is making it hard for me to type a full sentence, so I think I'm gonna sign off now and try and get some much needed sleep.

Thanks again

Laura

Carl Jung once said that giving good advice rarely causes any harm as so few people take any notice! However--

As children we learn to defend ourselves agaInst hurt lest we be annihilated, and the tricks we develop to do this can become a prison constraining our further development. So, the most important learning for us all in adult life is THE ART OF BEING UPSET CONFIDENTLY, in that being confident that we shall survive we can begin to discard some of our more primitive defences as redundant.

Every crisis in life is like a fork in a road. If you respond as you have always done you learn nothing new and take the downhill route;that is until you pause, reflect and take stock on all that you have learnt till now. Let your unconscious mind marinate on this, while to you indulge your conscious mind and feelings with a good wallow(this part may seem familiar, but what you can add is to decide whether you will have a 5 day, 5 hour, or 5minute wallow). The crisis can now now be seen more as a personal growth challenge and learning opportunity. You find yourself taking steps on the upward route to becoming wiser and stronger, as some of the old defences seem increasingly redundant.

Happy? Well that should follow later. As someone once said about LUCK ;
It is only appreciated and embraced by the prepared mind.

So, my best wishes and good luck! Donatien