my first sexual fantasy was when i was in grade one. i remember being in a room with many hot guys surrounding me all naked including me. since i didn't know how a penis looked like then or what sex was i only fondled them.

later on in grade five or six i remember watching a video in school. i think it was a video for dangers in your neighbourhood and prevention of harm to children. the video was about a girl a few years older than me then (about 12 or 13 at the time) and she would frequently go to this mans house because he had this video camera that intrigued her and while she was playing with it he leaves and comes back with a little present for her. it's lingerie he wanted her to put on. she hesitated and said no and left. i suppose after that i would fantasize about being her and puting on the lingerie and then having sex with the man. the man was not attractive, he was fat, balding and his hair was white. i think after that the men in my fantasy are mostly unatractive, fat, old and lonley.