Thanks so much for your post, Dngnkeeper. What a thorough (and beautiful) explanation of subspace. Your post answered a lot of questions I've had, but also presented some new ones.

While reading the section you wrote about adrenalin (the fifth paragraph of your post), I had a light-bulb moment. My experience is that I crave pain, but while in the scene, I will often safeword prematurely. I've wondered why. In your post, you said that "This is where doubts about my choice to bottom arise, this is where thoughts and images of past nonconcentual pain will begin to appear." Wow! This is EXACTLY the point where I safeword. Prior to reading your post, I wondered why I abort so early in the game. I thought maybe I don't trust my top, but that's not it.....I trust him with everything. Now I'm beginning to think it has more to do with the images of nonconsensual pain experienced in the past.

So my question is, how did you push beyond that and stay with it, getting to the point of subspace?

Thanks again for such an excellent post. I'm going to re-read it a couple of times and ponder it much!!