It seems that my comments have been misintepreted by more then one person.

I'm not speaking about being poly, or even having casual relationships away from a primary, all that is just fine with me and I would be a hypocrite if I said otherwise.

I also believe in the Hebrew sense of love, not the english version. In english we have 1 word for love. You love your parents, your family, your dog, humanity, your spouce, your neighbor. its all one word. But in hebrew there are 7 words for love each meaning a different thing and a different distinct type.


As far as what happened. I'll throw you the cliff's notes version. Basiclly I met a sub that I liked, she had alot of potential (at least in words) to grow into something spectacular. After dicussions and negotiations and agreements I outline a simple schedule, 3 weekends a month. which I also asked her husband directly about and he was fine with it as well.

First month was great, the next month something came up one weekend and I accepted the excuse. the next month again she tried to beg out of a weekend and was punished for it. the next month it was 2, then it was all three, after the second month on not coming down I final determined it was in my best intrest to release her she wasn't serious enough to me.

The first thought that came to my mind, and I am sure yours as well, is she wasn't interested anymore or something along those lines. So when she came on-line I told her that she was released. She begged and pleaded, I simply explain why. Then she got in her car and drove the hour and a half down here to plead and beg again. promising and begging. The fact she drove down told me it wasn't a lack of intrest so I gave her one last chance. Sure enough Friday night came and there was no knock at my door. yet there she was on-line. So I released her last night for the final time.

She couldn't handle the commitments she made and she made to many, her family, her friends, Socializing. She wanted to many things. I guess I am the fool in all this since this isn't the first time.