Very worried that current bdsm is caused by past abuse

[duktig flicka]

Thank you, masterkurt, mythicat and spike. I'm going to do my best to take your advice.

duktig flicka = capable girl ?

I'm so impressed!

Personally speaking, I think that you come across as remarkably sane for all that you've gone through.

I'm going to take that as a huge compliment. Watch out, though! Everyone appears sane when you first meet them.