"What if both apply?"

Then, at least theoretically, I think you should look into yourself and analyse your motivations and try to accept yourself, even in your darker sides.

In this light it seems less important to find out where your dark desires come from .... the point is to accept and to manage them without guilt or stress.

My former slave caroline (she never danced) was excellent in this attitude. As long as she felt she had to be a slave, she managed to be totally submissive in such a linear and selfconsciuos way ... when she felt she no longer had those needs, she just stopped it, mantaining the same good psicological balance.