Submission slavery and objectification

[Ezzrai]

Defending you? Against what? Do you both live in a bad neighborhood?


From myself more i would say. i am very self destructive when it comes to relationships/friendships and its habitual that i allow no one to get close. Here is a poem i wrote a couple years ago


Enigma
by Tenika

I am an enigma, it is my defense.
I speak in riddles, I mean no offense.
Deflecting with confusion should you lean too close,
then puns and laughter wrapping you in droves
of heightened awareness, carnal and tense,
erecting connections, aye my barbed wired fence.

I may yearn. Oh god I can dream!
Yet only allowing sparing glimpses to be seen.
It is my way now, habitual as breath
and sadly will be...perserverance ’til death.
So hold my hand, that at least i may feel
supple softness from this rigid steel.

and i can almost assuredly say...no one has seen what is inside my mind unless i let them have glimpses....very few. As for my soul..only those who care to look and He did....my defenses are my barb wired fences...trying to keep Him at bay and not submitting from fear. By saying He would be defending me, to my belief is another way of Him saying he will only promise not to harm me or betray my fragile trust in Him, to let it flourish and continue on in our journey.

Finding_Fantasy..it must have taken courage to write that and post it for people to see. i dont think i could ever do anything like that, the things i have seen and experienced...lol it would turn most people away. in any event, may i ask...does it still haunt you...even if in your dreams, subconsciousness?

abuse and terror, violation of any sense or reason, mental or physical strips a person of any sense or humanity, yet they still stand and survive and grow...maybe even more beautiful than they were beforehand.

*sighs* i talk and think too much.

i will shush now