Submission slavery and objectification

[Finding_Fantasy]

It's strange. I have never been really submissive towards many people. I have been taught to stand up for myself and what I believe in, and I do. But here's the thing. I hate making choices. Just ask my Master there.

I mean, how many time have you asked me, Master. "What do you want to do tonight?" or "Where would you like to go and eat?" Don't I usually say "I don't know. What about you?" I guess I would just rather have choics made for me mostly.

Don't get me wrong, I am damned good at being an authority figure. I can give orders, deligate responsibility, and am always resonsible for training new hires no matter what job I am in. That doesn't mean I have to like it.

I guess you could say I was abused when I was a kid, though not by my family. It was by other kids. I hit puberty in the 4th grade and was wearing a full bra by the end of the 4th. I got teased, beaten up, ridculed, dragged won hallways by my hair. You name it. But I always fought back because it wasn't "consensual" Not that a 4th grader knows what that means.

However, before I was truly abused, I had a want of being submissive. Why? Because of what I stated above. I would rather have someone else make the choices. I find it "easier" Maybe that is a lazy way of looking at it, but I only submitt to one person, and that is my Master. If he wants me to be trained by another, I will comply IF I have respect for that person. My willingness to submitt has nothing to do with my abuse

I have decided though to attach a file called My Introduction. It is a true account of how I discovered BDSM and the abuse I went through etc...

A warning though, it isn't a pretty, happy happy, joyful story. Just maybe it will give a different perspective on how I can still be a submissive after being abused.