Originally posted by Ezzrai
LadyAmanda
i was abused from very young childhood until the end of my marriage, after which i sought proffessional help and have been for the last 7 years alone. During our interview, my Master held me at a very open and vulnerable spot seeming eternity, then enveloped me in his arms and held me there safe. It was the most precious and beautiful feeling in the world i had ever felt. He did not betray my trust, he did not harm me, but only suceeded in reaffirming more trust, and strengthen my desire to commit and make him happy.

During one of our discussions, i said to him "soon all my defenses will be gone and i will be vulnerable!" He replied back "defenses? you need none against me, it is I who will be defending you, and look at being vulnerable as an exchange of trust between us"

Defending you? Against what? Do you both live in a bad neighborhood?

I am very happy that you trust your master, as you should. I'm also very happy that you have a desire to commit to him, as you should, and to make him happy, again as you should. However, were any of these things missing from your relationship, I would hope you would not be involved in it in the first place.

I wrote an article for this forum a couple of months ago. You might want to have a look at it, as it puts a lot of things into perspective for a lot of bdsm newbies.

http://www.bdsmlibrary.com/forums/sh...=&threadid=119

Maybe have a look at it and see what you think.

It is a bit refreshing to see someone with such a fresh and unclouded view of bdsm. It doesn't happen too often. Just don't mistake things that should be present in your relationship for things that are special.