TS Torture & rape story

[bbwolf]

Complex and interresting, huh? Thanx. Complex is a bullseye.
I fear I just made myself a bit of an disliked rebell in some other thread. T´sk*.
I got jumped ´cause of my strong seperation of consensual and nonconsensual settings. I just can´t tolerate even the fictional rape of a 14 year old girl. What the heck. Simons even taught me the abouts of safeguards. Y´know, special words and the whole thing. I feel so reliefed. Now I know what I´ve been missing fer so long. I´m a changed man.

See, I like (very) to lead my partners in a play. Deeper into the thing, maybe even crossing the borders. Inflicting greater pain, embarresment than before, than wanted. But only if there´s a understanding, a (one more time) consensual base fer both. The submission must be wanted by the sub. He or She or maybe even S/he must want this too. Maybe not right now, maybe putting up a fight first and then, evantually givin in. Because deep down the Bottom wants to please me, trusts me. Wanting to cross the border, too, but not without guidance. Dig?

If you read the other threads you´ll notice a strong resistance against real force and brutality against helpless victims. Thats a major part of my beeing and ever will be. In Germany we call it civil courage. Even though I can be hard, unforgiving, demanding, whatever in a play, I´ll never be able to boss around in reality.
I need a true partner and a willing slave. This is my curse.

Okay, back to subject one. Tell me more about these "Transgender Warriors". Do you feel like warrior, too? Sometimes? Like the path you walked untill today left you stronger than you once were?
I once read about shamans, harbouring both, male and female deities. They drew power outta this double beeing. It´s a spiritual thing after all. Like y´re a female soul in a male body? Now merging together aided by modern medicin. Maybe this could be accelerated with shamanistic or pagan rituals? Uhh, I feel a completely new twist fer a story. This´ll get REAL interresting. Hey, how about this. You´ll be fixed to chair and Computer/Paper and not be allowed to relief yerself untill ye finished at least five full pages. Maybe this setting will give ya the endurance to finish two pages at last?