How many of us have had a fulfilling D/s relationship that eneded and then find ourselves not whole?

I have wondered for a long time what is missing within me, strange as it sounds I think I have figured it out.
First I thought it was my job so I transfered to another unit in surgery to become a recovery room nurse. That wasn't it, not my job. Then I wondered if it was about the money, obviously not since nurses don't make squat.
My marriage? Nope, in tact, plenty of good 'norml' sex with hubby. Kids going off to college, no problem there.

Have you even felt like your breath had been taken away, or you had fallen someplace and couldn't be found? I crave that which I have known, it gave me life, my soul was alive.

I gave my feelings to someone who took them and then gave them back, but they were whole. They went back inside me whole, I was whole. Has anyone ever felt like this?

I would greatly appreciate any thoughts on this, if anyone has experienced this.