Blog of a Girl Figuring Out Life.
So I thought to jump on the band wagon if putting a blog up here. Right now I am going through a time of self discovery, and what better way to discover myself than share to the community. I have always felt like I have a story to tell, so here it goes. I am a 19 year old submissive who lives on the east coast. I am currently living with my parents and going to community college. I guess the first thing that got me into the BDSM mindset was the movie Secretary with Maggie Gyllenhaal and James Spader. I first saw this movie on TV and there was something so magical about it, I really enjoyed it. I never thought of having that type of relationship because it wasn't until later i was sexually awoken. I lost my virginity a few weeks before my 18th birthday. It was this a guy I had been on and off with. We only had sex twice, then I found somene else and broke up with him. I tend to guy hop. This guy I didn't go as far with the first guy, but thats ok because i broke up with him for yet another guy. This guy was special for some reason. I had known him since my freshman year in high school when we had English together. I didn't really see him 10th and 11th grade. It wasn't until we had English our senior year did we start talking again. He would always tease me and fluster me, but that was his way of flirting. We graduated, and we lost connection for awhile but then he contacted me on facebook. We started talking and we started to hang out, etc until we started to date. Now i remember being on his couch making out and we both agreed to have sex, we had only been going out a week! I trusted him, and i felt OK with him. So we had sex on a regular basis, now because i had such little experience with sex, it hurt and it kept hurting for awhile then it was like OK sex was sex, it didn't feel good it was just sex. We tried acouple ways of doing things and stuff and it eventually got better, but still sex wasn't that good for me. So one day i brought over secretary for us to watch and something clicked in my head, i wanna try BDSM! i talked to my boyfriend, and he said sure we can try it. i called him master and i had to be a good girl. We had a point system. If i behaved and did no wrong i would earn points and when i had enough points he would reward me, but when i was bad i get points taken away and i would get punished. I love loved to get spanked, and though he only did this once, he tied me up and had his way with me. I had never been so turned on! I knew i like this type of relationship. I think i will stop the story right here, I have already typed a lot. More to come.
PS-Sorry for the grammar errors and such, grammar isn't my strong point.
