Oak
Wild Viking

Oh, lol... I know you weren't mad, but I guess I'm just not at all used to talking to Doms other than my Master. I was just kind of taken aback by your tone. Anyway, yeah... after the points you made yesterday and a conversation with my Master last night, I actually think I've kind of come to peace about the situation. I was being a brat and getting all upset over nothing of real significance.

I think you are right... every Master is different and every slave has different challenges to face. Plus what might bother some slaves might be no big deal to others. As to the luck question... I think I'm the luckiest slave on Earth regardless of whether he is being kind to me or downright vicious. One thing that I have to cope with that is genuinely difficult is my Master's rather nasty temper. We have a way worked out that we deal with when he is like that, and it works well for us. Actually, I find our method quite arousing and exhilerating... most subs/slave would probably think it is abusive- but, whatever. Everyone has a different definition of abuse I guess. To be honest, I don't feel that in a true and complete M/s relationship that there can be such a thing. Imo, slaves have absolutely no way out, no options, no choices, no safewords, no limits, and if they choose to leave their Master after deciding to become their slave of their own free will- I don't care if they are drug out in the street and shot. Slaves are slaves and this is not a game which we can choose to opt out of in my book. Man, I am probably gonna catch heat from ppl for saying that publically. Oh, well.

Lol, yeah, kids can be tough. The other night, Master and I were kind of all over each other and our 12 year old suggested that we might want to close our bedroom door lol.

Speaking of know it alls- I just got into a HUGE fight in chat with two of those type. Grrr.

Hehehe... now see, i'd have been thrilled by the passing train! I love public humiliation, but Master has many ways of humiliating me without me even being there... and that works out well for the imprisoning, as I'm terrified to step out the door for more reasons than just because I would be punished.

Oh, btw, the guitarist (her name is Poison Ivy) is the domme. Lux (the singer) is her cross-dressing slave. They also have an open marriage and poly relationships as they are both bisexual. Very cool people.

Lol... gosh you sound irate! But, I know you are right. I should feel happy he still uses my ass & mouth. Trust me though, while you are right that he is very kind in some ways; there's a lot I have to contend with that other slaves don't. I'm not complaining- just saying the truth.

I'm glad he is allowing us to be friends too. I just recently lost my best bdsm friend to a terrible fight and have been very lost without her to talk to for support. Your friendship means a lot to me.

Yes, he has made me wait that long several times, though he has allowed me to change clothes because our kids were present at those times. He has also literally "beaten the piss out of me" a couple times- I don't tell many ppl that due to ppl being judgemental about the (obvious) violence involved in that. But we do lots of things that are generally considered no-nos in bdsm culture. The trouble with the public stuff is that he has to be very creative in his ideas because I am a captive slave- I am only allowed to leave the house a few times a year. Other than that, I kept entirely indoors and not even allowed to check the mail.

I'm thrilled that you like the Misfits. If you like them, you might also enjoy The Cramps. The lead guitarist and the singer are a bdsm, married couple and most of their songs are about kinky sex. They also are a goth-punk band. I will try to find the bands you mentioned. However, I might have trouble finding them in the states. Americans are so arrogant... we don't "like" things that aren't also American or at least British. God, I hate my country. Anyway, Master said he had heard of all those bands, but he knows sooooo much about music. Far more than I.

Thank you for the reminder... keep them coming!

You are right. I need to learn to accept his choice about not fucking my cunt. I guess it's just hard to get used to because it is a new rule. Could you do me a favor? Please end every message that you send me with that statement about having to earn his cock in my cunt. Perhaps that will help me keep things in perspective, because of course you are right. Honestly, I'm being a brat and I kinda know it. I always have trouble accepting new "decrees from above" until eventually, I get it pummelled into me... in one way or another. I am genuinely so devoted to him; please don't doubt that!- But I'm stubborn and hard to break when I feel something is unfair, even when logic tells me it is not unfair. Fuck, I'm hard to break across the board. That is how the cucking came about- it is the only way that I could be effectivly humiliated... by having our entire neighborhood know what he is doing to me... often with the neighbors lol.

As for the new experience... well, he did say it was ok to post it and honestly I prefer to post it in public, humiliation junkie that I am. Plus this way our conversation is easily viewed and traced by my Master. I really can not express how unusual it is for him to allow me to have a Dominant male as a friend. It has actually never once happened before! So I'm very anxious for him to know every word we say, because this is such a nice thing for him to allow.

Anyway, the new development is this- I (of course) have always had to ask permission to use the bathroom and (of course) it isn't always granted. However, he has decided to try out going a step further. He has completely taken control of my bowel movements. I am not allowed to have one without him giving me an enema, so that I have no control over it. If I have a bowel movement without receiving an enema and him watching it be expelled, he will punish me quite severely. Before this enemas were pretty frequent, but more used for play or punishment. The fact that he is now taking complete control over basic body functions is very exciting!

LOL @ Amazon Warriors. Hehehe, the Misfits are a kind of goth themed old school punk band from here in the states. If you are interested in listening to a song by them, I highly recommend the song Saturday Night. It was on the Famous Monsters cd, released in 1999. You can find it on most music services. Oh, lol.... what am I thinking? Just go to my slave blog- the link is in my contact info. There is a music player on there and it plays all 4 of our "couple songs", incuding Saturday Night. TTYL!!!!